http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xc1u9X4HFAE
nostalgic ass song.
floods of memories ruuushh back, from the past 15 years of my existence.
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Saturday, November 3, 2012
haven't been on here in a long time.
so, hello, everyone who may be reading this. lots has happened since i last wrote on here, april 16th 2012. Summer happened. Summer was amazing. Summer was friends. Summer went. :/ but then, school started. From starting at private, catholic schools my whole entire life, I switched to a public huge school. Everything is new, from the diversity of the students, to the size of the school. My whole Freshman Class is about 400 students or so. that's bigger than my whole school last year. I really love the change. I can be who I am, who I want to be, & act like me. I feel more confident. I don't feel judged & I don't feel ashamed, either. I really love it & all the friends I'm becoming to know. :) Also, another change has occurred. I converted from Christianity/Catholicism to Buddhism. I know, huge change. I love it, though. I still believe in God, don't get me wrong, but I just don't have to.. feel the pressure to talk to him, or believe in him. It's good to have doubts. Buddhism is a really good religion. You can believe in what you want, you don't have to worship anyone. You don't feel pressured to go to a building every week and talk to something that doesn't talk back to me. I really like it. There are more than one religion out there, you guys.
so, hello, everyone who may be reading this. lots has happened since i last wrote on here, april 16th 2012. Summer happened. Summer was amazing. Summer was friends. Summer went. :/ but then, school started. From starting at private, catholic schools my whole entire life, I switched to a public huge school. Everything is new, from the diversity of the students, to the size of the school. My whole Freshman Class is about 400 students or so. that's bigger than my whole school last year. I really love the change. I can be who I am, who I want to be, & act like me. I feel more confident. I don't feel judged & I don't feel ashamed, either. I really love it & all the friends I'm becoming to know. :) Also, another change has occurred. I converted from Christianity/Catholicism to Buddhism. I know, huge change. I love it, though. I still believe in God, don't get me wrong, but I just don't have to.. feel the pressure to talk to him, or believe in him. It's good to have doubts. Buddhism is a really good religion. You can believe in what you want, you don't have to worship anyone. You don't feel pressured to go to a building every week and talk to something that doesn't talk back to me. I really like it. There are more than one religion out there, you guys.
Monday, April 16, 2012
"Life is amazing" is what I would love to type in. It's what comes to mind first thing. That's not true. Life isn't amazing. I am still upset, aggravated, and depressed. No one seems to notice, nor care. Once in awhile my friends ask "what's your problem?" instead of "what's wrong?" I say, "nothing." But what I really want to happen is, I want them to hug me and say " i know there is something wrong." and I want to tell them everything. How I constantly feel horrible. How I constantly have to stick it in. How I constantly feel insecure and worthless. every single second of the day. I want someone to realize how i feel, to tell me that I am beautiful..
but I know that's not gonna happen.
& even if it did, it would be a lie.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
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